feel the beauty and the pain

feel the beauty 
and the pain 
as i'm riding 
on this train 
so i know 
that the 
main thing to do 
is to keep moving on 
to the sound of the city 
to forget all the pity 
that i feel for myself 
in this moment. 

- song

 

i don’t want to be like you

i don't want to be like you 
i don't want to sink like you do 
just want to go into the desert 
feel the wind between 
my fingertips

all alone. 

underneath the sun 
don't you know 
you hold the key to your universe


so let's go.

selfish. desperate. eyes

how did i not see the truth?
maybe it was my youth 
that blinded me 
to your selfish. desperate. eyes
how did i not realize that i was 
trying to survive 
while you were crumbling inside.

things that i love #1:

i love
the way 
the ocean
can fold 
itself 
into a
wave.

unfamiliar perfumes

i don't go 
smelling around
my husband's clothes
in search for 
unfamiliar perfumes

she said. 

been taught 
to never 
ever.
follow him 
into 
strange 
hotel rooms. 

- what you don't know won't hurt you?

invisible wounds

how did i not 
understand 
that words 
could not 
heal 
the invisible 
wounds 
you inflicted 
upon me. 

 

nothing stays the same

nothing stays the same. 
everything changes with the wind
and i am caught between the branches
of a tree that stands
rooted in the sand. 
is there something more?
cause in the sun it’s easy to adore
the creases of the moon
enchanted
hidden in your eyes
was the depths of the skies. 

- song

i am not your prize

listen. i am not your prize.

why can't you
take the time 
to actually 
realize 

my passions 
my weaknesses 
my strengths

before 
you show me off
to your friends?

- yours truly 

tell me

what made you think
i was still stuck to you 
like glue?

i have no clue. 

(ok. i lied. maybe i do)

a song was born today

life in color 
i feel better 
here 
in the heart of it all 
here 
where the waters fall. 

far away from here 
i can only hear 
the sounds
of the humming breeze 
that bring 
me to my knees.

(added aug 14th) 
and this is where i come from
and this is where i am supposed to be 
right now 
without a doubt